1 00:00:15,310 --> 00:00:18,870 I've not really spoke about it because it's just something you've put behind 2 00:00:18,870 --> 00:00:19,870 door in your head. 3 00:00:20,570 --> 00:00:24,210 But I need to come to peace with what I've done and who I am. 4 00:00:29,750 --> 00:00:33,530 I grew up with my grandma telling me all about my granddad. He died in the 5 00:00:33,530 --> 00:00:34,530 Second World War. 6 00:00:35,970 --> 00:00:39,130 I wanted to live up to what she thought were a great man. 7 00:00:41,370 --> 00:00:43,590 So I joined the army at 16. 8 00:00:50,380 --> 00:00:55,500 I served in Bosnia, Northern Ireland, 9 00:00:55,760 --> 00:01:02,760 the Falklands, all over the 10 00:01:02,760 --> 00:01:03,760 world. 11 00:01:05,099 --> 00:01:08,140 I felt proud about fighting for my country. 12 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:16,860 Never ever did I think I'd become an international drug smuggler. 13 00:01:40,300 --> 00:01:46,760 When I was 28 years old, I was blown up by an IED, fighting in Bosnia. 14 00:01:49,040 --> 00:01:54,260 The army told me that they were going to medically discharge me, and I felt 15 00:01:54,260 --> 00:01:55,480 really rejected. 16 00:01:57,320 --> 00:01:58,320 Yeah. 17 00:01:59,460 --> 00:02:01,620 My whole ambition in life was snuffed out. 18 00:02:03,400 --> 00:02:05,300 All I ever wanted to be was a soldier. 19 00:02:16,170 --> 00:02:22,030 When I came home, I was volatile, very angry, drinking a lot. 20 00:02:22,390 --> 00:02:23,970 And drinking didn't help. 21 00:02:24,710 --> 00:02:26,590 Drinking made my temper worse. 22 00:02:27,710 --> 00:02:29,430 Someone would bump into me. 23 00:02:30,970 --> 00:02:34,570 My answer for that would strike out. 24 00:02:36,170 --> 00:02:37,550 What's your problem, mate? 25 00:02:38,390 --> 00:02:41,730 But deep inside, that wasn't the real me. 26 00:02:42,450 --> 00:02:44,470 And I hated myself for it. 27 00:02:52,360 --> 00:02:55,040 The doctor said that I had developed a personality disorder. 28 00:02:56,180 --> 00:02:58,600 No, I know it wasn't. It was PTSD. 29 00:02:59,560 --> 00:03:06,120 But back then, PTSD weren't a thing. It hadn't been diagnosed to anybody. 30 00:03:09,920 --> 00:03:13,060 I started to experience flashbacks. 31 00:03:16,600 --> 00:03:17,660 Bad dreams. 32 00:03:20,620 --> 00:03:23,140 It's just a feeling that something's crushing you. 33 00:03:41,980 --> 00:03:46,560 Crazy when you talk and images flash back into your head and you just lose 34 00:03:49,160 --> 00:03:50,660 Proper mental, that. 35 00:04:02,680 --> 00:04:07,500 Pharmaceutical medicines that they give me for depression and for aggression and 36 00:04:07,500 --> 00:04:11,480 antipsychotics definitely didn't help. 37 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:16,620 They made me drowsy, kind of numbed you. 38 00:04:18,480 --> 00:04:20,140 I just needed to get away. 39 00:04:22,500 --> 00:04:26,020 I was reading the old stories about the hippie trail in India. 40 00:04:28,240 --> 00:04:32,360 The images that they showed in Goa looked like a paradise. 41 00:04:34,840 --> 00:04:38,040 Somewhere where I could lose myself and escape my demons. 42 00:04:41,020 --> 00:04:45,040 So that's when I decided I was going to India. 43 00:04:56,170 --> 00:05:02,650 The busyness, the hecticness, and the sheer chaos of it all blew my mind. 44 00:05:07,250 --> 00:05:10,990 I got assaulted by rickshaw drivers like you wouldn't believe. 45 00:05:11,830 --> 00:05:14,910 Come with me, come in this, this. 46 00:05:16,830 --> 00:05:19,930 I'm thinking, wow, is this really what I want to be doing? 47 00:05:27,210 --> 00:05:30,510 And then all of a sudden, it just becomes like a tropical paradise. 48 00:05:31,430 --> 00:05:35,070 Palm trees, the beach. 49 00:05:37,290 --> 00:05:38,290 Beautiful. 50 00:05:40,230 --> 00:05:43,070 The first thing I did was make my way to the bar. 51 00:05:45,490 --> 00:05:47,850 The waiter took me through the back. 52 00:05:49,090 --> 00:05:52,910 And at the other side of this curtain were just lots of hippies getting 53 00:06:03,240 --> 00:06:04,240 Line up a sit -in. 54 00:06:05,420 --> 00:06:06,420 Be my dad. 55 00:06:08,160 --> 00:06:09,160 I'm Mickey. 56 00:06:10,620 --> 00:06:11,620 Welcome to Gabba. 57 00:06:12,380 --> 00:06:13,840 The best hash in the world. 58 00:06:15,680 --> 00:06:21,040 I smoked cannabis before, but this was different on every level. 59 00:06:23,200 --> 00:06:28,180 It didn't make me lazy unless I can sit around and just go, hey, man, you know, 60 00:06:28,220 --> 00:06:29,220 like a stoner. 61 00:06:29,600 --> 00:06:31,720 Made me want to do things. It made me active. 62 00:06:32,040 --> 00:06:33,340 It gave me energy. 63 00:06:39,060 --> 00:06:41,580 I started partying every night. 64 00:06:43,880 --> 00:06:45,660 Full moon parties, raves. 65 00:06:48,520 --> 00:06:49,960 I felt comfortable. 66 00:06:50,860 --> 00:06:51,940 I was calm. 67 00:06:53,600 --> 00:06:55,500 My temper subsided. 68 00:06:59,020 --> 00:07:00,820 It helped my PTSD. 69 00:07:02,640 --> 00:07:04,600 Changed everything, really. 70 00:07:06,160 --> 00:07:07,160 Changed everything. 71 00:07:10,700 --> 00:07:15,220 For the first time since I left the army, I actually felt content. 72 00:07:21,040 --> 00:07:26,320 So, I had to come up with a plan of how I could stay there and sufficiently 73 00:07:26,320 --> 00:07:27,320 live. 74 00:07:32,190 --> 00:07:37,230 After a week, Mickey said to me, Well, I've got loads of ash. 75 00:07:38,250 --> 00:07:39,590 You can turn it into the story. 76 00:07:40,730 --> 00:07:43,590 Every 10 grams, I'll give you 500. 77 00:07:45,350 --> 00:07:49,050 And I thought, hmm, that's very tempting. 78 00:07:50,170 --> 00:07:52,610 So I said, OK, I'll do it. 79 00:08:00,650 --> 00:08:06,670 I started getting small quantities, blatantly smoking openly, 80 00:08:06,950 --> 00:08:13,870 and within a few minutes, tourists would approach me, and I started 81 00:08:13,870 --> 00:08:18,150 supplying hash, which I didn't see as a crime. 82 00:08:20,050 --> 00:08:21,610 That's what they go to go for. 83 00:08:30,830 --> 00:08:32,030 But then the monsoon came. 84 00:08:33,110 --> 00:08:40,090 The tourist season ended. 85 00:08:41,150 --> 00:08:44,850 No people. No people to sell hash to. 86 00:08:47,290 --> 00:08:50,130 So I went to visit Mickey. 87 00:08:51,410 --> 00:08:52,510 There he was then. 88 00:08:54,990 --> 00:08:58,750 He said to me, do you want to make some money? 89 00:08:59,580 --> 00:09:03,220 You need to take some hash to Berlin. 90 00:09:04,980 --> 00:09:06,340 And I went, really? 91 00:09:07,640 --> 00:09:11,120 And he said, it's in a false bottom suitcase. 92 00:09:11,720 --> 00:09:14,040 An eight kilo slab of hash at the bottom. 93 00:09:15,660 --> 00:09:19,740 When it goes through the x -ray, all they see is a solid bank. 94 00:09:22,500 --> 00:09:25,100 Berlin, pay 48 grand cash. 95 00:09:28,360 --> 00:09:31,980 I knew smuggling drugs internationally came with huge risks. 96 00:09:33,560 --> 00:09:36,300 But I didn't know where the money were coming from. 97 00:09:37,920 --> 00:09:40,260 And I didn't want to go home. 98 00:09:45,060 --> 00:09:46,060 Yeah. 99 00:09:46,960 --> 00:09:47,960 I'll do it. 100 00:09:51,400 --> 00:09:53,520 You think too long, you change your mind. 101 00:09:53,940 --> 00:09:54,940 I'll do it. 102 00:10:01,200 --> 00:10:02,200 a wheat lead. 103 00:10:02,500 --> 00:10:04,000 I was given a suitcase. 104 00:10:05,880 --> 00:10:08,060 I wanted to check the hash. 105 00:10:08,640 --> 00:10:10,560 So I undo six screws. 106 00:10:19,280 --> 00:10:24,240 And I saw purple carbon paper designed to detract the x -ray. 107 00:10:26,320 --> 00:10:27,780 Underneath the carbon paper 108 00:10:29,870 --> 00:10:31,750 was eight kilos of hashish. 109 00:10:34,110 --> 00:10:35,110 Wow. 110 00:10:38,110 --> 00:10:42,310 As I packed, I discovered a stick of hash. 111 00:10:46,550 --> 00:10:50,630 When I smoked cannabis, it made me calm, more relaxed. 112 00:10:51,670 --> 00:10:53,090 So I smoked it. 113 00:10:57,210 --> 00:10:58,210 Every bit. 114 00:11:06,190 --> 00:11:07,670 and got the taxi to the airport. 115 00:11:20,770 --> 00:11:25,630 I think if I wasn't stoned, they'd probably look really nervous and really 116 00:11:25,630 --> 00:11:26,630 anxious. 117 00:11:28,550 --> 00:11:32,010 But the weed played it down. 118 00:11:43,850 --> 00:11:45,010 Everything went smooth. 119 00:11:47,910 --> 00:11:52,090 But then they asked me to put my bag through the x -ray machine. 120 00:11:58,430 --> 00:12:01,050 My palms started to get sweaty. 121 00:12:03,310 --> 00:12:05,930 What if the lining in the suitcase didn't work? 122 00:12:10,060 --> 00:12:13,800 Why was I risking ten years in prison when I could have been on the beach 123 00:12:13,800 --> 00:12:15,120 smoking a big fat split? 124 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:28,220 And then all of a sudden the machine stopped. 125 00:12:33,440 --> 00:12:36,760 I thought, I've been busted here. 126 00:12:46,250 --> 00:12:47,690 I'd never felt so scared. 127 00:12:55,270 --> 00:13:02,030 But then the roller started up again and the bag came out the other side. 128 00:13:04,310 --> 00:13:06,550 The carbon paper had worked. 129 00:13:09,410 --> 00:13:10,910 It was a big relief. 130 00:13:12,010 --> 00:13:13,570 A huge relief. 131 00:13:18,220 --> 00:13:22,100 When I arrived in Berlin, I went to visit Mickey's contact. 132 00:13:25,540 --> 00:13:29,120 And I gave them the eight kilos of hashish. 133 00:13:35,940 --> 00:13:39,740 I was given $48 ,000 in cash. 134 00:13:40,980 --> 00:13:42,200 That's a lot of money. 135 00:13:45,610 --> 00:13:47,730 I've not seen that much money before. 136 00:13:48,510 --> 00:13:49,530 And that's for me. 137 00:13:56,730 --> 00:13:57,750 I was hooked. 138 00:14:03,330 --> 00:14:08,250 Over the next four years, I smuggled hash to Berlin, 139 00:14:08,490 --> 00:14:14,510 Switzerland, Holland, 140 00:14:17,710 --> 00:14:18,710 And Italy. 141 00:14:20,090 --> 00:14:21,090 Easy. 142 00:14:23,050 --> 00:14:25,670 I was making tens of thousands of dollars. 143 00:14:34,150 --> 00:14:37,350 I thought life really couldn't get any better. 144 00:14:50,670 --> 00:14:53,450 One night, there's a bit of a trance party going on. 145 00:14:54,250 --> 00:14:56,930 And we're just sat smoking a joint. 146 00:14:59,630 --> 00:15:02,450 And I saw this beautiful woman sat next to me. 147 00:15:03,570 --> 00:15:06,010 And we just kept noticing each other. 148 00:15:16,400 --> 00:15:19,780 She said, well, I can travel six months and then I have to go home for six 149 00:15:19,780 --> 00:15:20,780 months to work. 150 00:15:21,560 --> 00:15:23,120 Nice to meet a fellow traveller. 151 00:15:24,080 --> 00:15:25,160 Nice to meet you too. 152 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:26,960 I'm Brett. 153 00:15:27,840 --> 00:15:28,840 I'm Michelle. 154 00:15:29,460 --> 00:15:31,300 We have the same interests. 155 00:15:32,180 --> 00:15:33,740 Both like the same kind of music. 156 00:15:34,360 --> 00:15:35,360 Want to go dance? 157 00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:38,300 Sure. Just don't judge me on my dance moves. 158 00:15:47,790 --> 00:15:50,070 I thought, she's got something in her, this girl. 159 00:15:50,950 --> 00:15:53,370 And we started travelling together. 160 00:15:57,030 --> 00:16:01,410 We went to places off the beaten track. 161 00:16:06,370 --> 00:16:08,110 Where no tourists went. 162 00:16:17,040 --> 00:16:18,700 And she was with me 24 -7. 163 00:16:26,120 --> 00:16:29,660 Every day, my feelings just got stronger. 164 00:16:32,360 --> 00:16:34,060 I was in love with her, yeah. 165 00:16:43,060 --> 00:16:44,580 Life was really good. 166 00:16:45,860 --> 00:16:52,210 But... After a few months, Shell said to me... I never see you go to the bank. 167 00:16:54,810 --> 00:16:55,810 Oh, really? 168 00:16:57,110 --> 00:16:58,410 Well, you always have money. 169 00:16:58,970 --> 00:17:02,710 And then she said to me straight... Do you sell drugs? 170 00:17:04,849 --> 00:17:07,150 I felt that I could trust her. 171 00:17:08,650 --> 00:17:09,650 100%. 172 00:17:15,079 --> 00:17:18,460 Smuggle Ash from Goy to Europe. 173 00:17:20,680 --> 00:17:21,680 How? 174 00:17:22,319 --> 00:17:24,020 I was honest with her. 175 00:17:24,839 --> 00:17:27,359 I got her in a suitcase with a hidden compartment. 176 00:17:29,120 --> 00:17:30,120 Really? 177 00:17:31,840 --> 00:17:35,880 Told her where I went, where I got it from, everything. 178 00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:40,220 I couldn't not be honest with her. 179 00:17:42,320 --> 00:17:44,040 As long as we know what you're doing. 180 00:17:46,400 --> 00:17:48,320 Just don't get caught, OK? 181 00:17:50,180 --> 00:17:54,860 When someone can get that trust out of you and you can give that trust to them 182 00:17:54,860 --> 00:17:59,260 without any doubt, it's a strong thing. 183 00:18:08,040 --> 00:18:13,900 So, three months later, I said, do you want to get married? 184 00:18:17,450 --> 00:18:18,450 More than anything. 185 00:18:26,090 --> 00:18:27,090 That was us. 186 00:18:27,610 --> 00:18:28,610 Engaged. 187 00:18:32,230 --> 00:18:35,250 I'd worked out that I needed to do one more trip. 188 00:18:35,690 --> 00:18:39,790 And I had enough money to get married and start a new life. 189 00:18:41,510 --> 00:18:43,150 I've got a trip lined up to Berlin. 190 00:18:44,990 --> 00:18:45,990 Can I come with you? 191 00:18:48,140 --> 00:18:53,560 Even though Shell wasn't smuggling drugs, I knew the trouble she would be 192 00:18:53,560 --> 00:18:54,560 I got busted. 193 00:18:55,880 --> 00:19:00,300 I said it's not necessary, but she insisted. 194 00:19:00,760 --> 00:19:03,560 Come on, be engaged. 195 00:19:06,660 --> 00:19:08,560 OK, we'll go together. 196 00:19:09,120 --> 00:19:10,120 Great. 197 00:19:10,620 --> 00:19:13,180 There'll be an early honeymoon. 198 00:19:15,760 --> 00:19:19,240 I wish I'd never agreed to her travelling with me. 199 00:19:29,920 --> 00:19:36,800 On April the 1st, 2003, we arrived at the Delhi airport with Ashish 200 00:19:36,800 --> 00:19:37,800 in my luggage. 201 00:19:39,440 --> 00:19:42,440 I thought, I've done this many times before. 202 00:19:44,080 --> 00:19:45,480 I felt untouchable. 203 00:19:50,640 --> 00:19:51,640 Passport. 204 00:19:59,900 --> 00:20:01,680 Passport, tickets, no problem. 205 00:20:04,800 --> 00:20:07,620 Then we had to go through an x -ray. 206 00:20:20,490 --> 00:20:21,790 Everything went through no problem. 207 00:20:24,450 --> 00:20:25,610 I was excited. 208 00:20:26,450 --> 00:20:28,630 All we had to do was get on the plane. 209 00:20:32,650 --> 00:20:39,290 But then I looked up and I seen three guys 210 00:20:39,290 --> 00:20:40,550 walking towards us. 211 00:20:45,190 --> 00:20:47,250 I tried not to panic. 212 00:20:48,750 --> 00:20:49,750 Excuse me, sir. 213 00:20:50,830 --> 00:20:52,370 Would you mind coming with me? 214 00:20:54,370 --> 00:20:55,370 Okay, sure. 215 00:21:00,190 --> 00:21:01,910 They all flip out. 216 00:21:03,270 --> 00:21:04,830 Just do what they want to do. 217 00:21:09,210 --> 00:21:10,890 Put your suitcases on the table. 218 00:21:15,730 --> 00:21:16,730 Open your suitcases. 219 00:21:19,790 --> 00:21:24,850 I just thought, they don't know what's in there. They're just taking a chance 220 00:21:24,850 --> 00:21:27,090 this. They just want to do some random checks. 221 00:21:30,390 --> 00:21:32,230 It's just clothes. What's your problem? 222 00:21:33,090 --> 00:21:36,150 And then he picked the suitcase up. 223 00:21:39,130 --> 00:21:40,130 It's just heavy. 224 00:21:40,750 --> 00:21:42,490 He said, it's just well made. 225 00:21:45,510 --> 00:21:47,610 But then I saw him doing the knife. 226 00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:50,280 My mouth went dry. 227 00:21:56,360 --> 00:21:57,840 I just felt numb. 228 00:22:00,860 --> 00:22:01,860 Numb. 229 00:22:03,500 --> 00:22:09,700 It's as hot as... My whole world came tumbling down. 230 00:22:12,780 --> 00:22:14,480 They dragged Shel away. 231 00:22:17,120 --> 00:22:19,520 Then... He said, you're signed. 232 00:22:22,060 --> 00:22:23,260 But it's blank. 233 00:22:23,500 --> 00:22:24,580 The paper is blank. 234 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:26,720 You sign. 235 00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:28,220 We'll fill in later. 236 00:22:30,300 --> 00:22:32,080 No, I'm not doing that. 237 00:22:34,020 --> 00:22:35,020 You're signed. 238 00:22:35,860 --> 00:22:37,600 They could write anything they want. 239 00:22:37,900 --> 00:22:42,760 By the end of it, I could get charged with terrorism, trafficking heroin, God 240 00:22:42,760 --> 00:22:43,760 knows what. 241 00:22:44,100 --> 00:22:45,140 So I wouldn't sign. 242 00:22:49,480 --> 00:22:53,160 Then this guy came in with a bowl full of water. 243 00:22:55,520 --> 00:22:57,180 And then they handcuffed me. 244 00:23:06,060 --> 00:23:07,720 They pulled my head back. 245 00:23:09,740 --> 00:23:11,960 Put the towel over your face and nose. 246 00:23:16,420 --> 00:23:18,280 And then pour water on it. 247 00:23:22,620 --> 00:23:24,060 You take a breath in. 248 00:23:25,880 --> 00:23:27,020 It's like you're drowning. 249 00:23:32,860 --> 00:23:37,420 I didn't realise people could be so cruel. 250 00:23:39,380 --> 00:23:43,020 Against someone who can't defend themselves. 251 00:23:44,160 --> 00:23:45,260 Contact! Contact! 252 00:23:46,480 --> 00:23:48,360 I was kind of screaming at them. 253 00:23:48,890 --> 00:23:50,150 You can't do this. 254 00:23:50,390 --> 00:23:54,790 I'm not signing this blank paper. 255 00:23:59,770 --> 00:24:03,130 Then they brought in a large battery. 256 00:24:03,550 --> 00:24:07,390 I said, what's that for? 257 00:24:07,930 --> 00:24:09,990 And he called me, you'll see. 258 00:24:18,840 --> 00:24:23,040 Attached one clip to my flesh on the inside of my leg. 259 00:24:24,640 --> 00:24:27,580 And then started touching my body with the other. 260 00:24:33,740 --> 00:24:34,740 No. 261 00:24:41,900 --> 00:24:45,400 I were pushed to the breaking point. 262 00:24:48,810 --> 00:24:53,010 In your training in the army, you get captured. 263 00:24:54,050 --> 00:24:55,350 It's name, rank, number. 264 00:24:56,210 --> 00:24:57,590 That's all you're getting out of me. 265 00:25:00,950 --> 00:25:02,090 Will you sign now? 266 00:25:04,830 --> 00:25:05,830 Not a chance. 267 00:25:15,410 --> 00:25:17,330 Then they brought Shell in the room. 268 00:25:21,740 --> 00:25:25,120 And he said, we're going to rape her in front of you. 269 00:25:26,120 --> 00:25:27,120 Unless you sign. 270 00:25:37,580 --> 00:25:44,040 The threat of them being violent against her, I couldn't comprehend that and I 271 00:25:44,040 --> 00:25:45,040 wasn't going to let that happen. 272 00:25:46,140 --> 00:25:47,240 So then I give in. 273 00:25:56,590 --> 00:25:58,230 I signed blank pieces of paper. 274 00:26:33,390 --> 00:26:40,090 I was charged with trafficking hashish, heroin, anything they could throw at me. 275 00:26:41,170 --> 00:26:42,170 Really. 276 00:26:44,530 --> 00:26:47,190 What can you do when you sign blank pieces of paper? 277 00:26:54,550 --> 00:26:56,670 I didn't know what had happened to Shell. 278 00:26:57,250 --> 00:26:59,250 I just prayed she'd been released. 279 00:27:01,610 --> 00:27:06,970 I'm a retired soldier and now here I was going to prison. 280 00:27:18,110 --> 00:27:24,690 I was led past murderers, armed robbers 281 00:27:24,690 --> 00:27:27,270 and rapists. 282 00:27:32,170 --> 00:27:33,170 There's no electricity. 283 00:27:39,330 --> 00:27:40,690 There was no running water. 284 00:27:46,730 --> 00:27:51,110 And they don't allow toothbrushes because toothbrushes can be made into 285 00:27:56,930 --> 00:28:00,170 A few days earlier, I'd been lying on the beach in paradise. 286 00:28:04,080 --> 00:28:07,820 And now here I was in the depths of hell. 287 00:28:14,540 --> 00:28:19,220 On the first night, I heard a scuffle going on. 288 00:28:21,900 --> 00:28:27,700 And I saw four guys tied with homemade rope around a guy's neck. 289 00:28:34,280 --> 00:28:37,140 And they hoisted him up on the rafter. 290 00:28:41,940 --> 00:28:46,540 And one of them opened his stomach up with a blade. 291 00:28:51,560 --> 00:28:53,040 And they killed him. 292 00:28:56,660 --> 00:29:03,440 It made me realise that inside that jail, life... 293 00:29:03,980 --> 00:29:05,220 didn't mean much. 294 00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:20,020 A minor disagreement, a refusal if someone asks you for something. 295 00:29:26,940 --> 00:29:28,920 That's an excuse to cut you. 296 00:29:43,150 --> 00:29:50,150 What I really cared about more than my own life was Shell and how she was 297 00:29:50,150 --> 00:29:51,150 doing. 298 00:29:53,570 --> 00:29:58,450 So I contacted the Indian Eye Commission and 299 00:29:58,450 --> 00:30:02,890 after a week, I was given a letter. 300 00:30:07,910 --> 00:30:10,030 Shell was in the ladies' jail. 301 00:30:13,070 --> 00:30:16,290 She was awaiting trial for the same charges I had received. 302 00:30:19,190 --> 00:30:21,670 I was wracked with guilt that she was there. 303 00:30:23,050 --> 00:30:24,250 It was down to me. 304 00:30:25,550 --> 00:30:28,710 It was my choice to smuggle drugs, not hers. 305 00:30:47,560 --> 00:30:49,640 I was really, really desperate to see her. 306 00:30:50,340 --> 00:30:55,780 But the only people who could visit the ladies' jail were married men. 307 00:30:56,980 --> 00:31:02,960 So I bribed the guard to falsely fill in the papers that we was married. 308 00:31:07,700 --> 00:31:13,340 We wanted to get married in paradise on a beach, but we ended up fakely getting 309 00:31:13,340 --> 00:31:16,200 married in an Indian jail. 310 00:31:30,510 --> 00:31:32,830 Shell looked like she had a nervous breakdown. 311 00:31:37,750 --> 00:31:40,830 She was just staring out into space like a zombie. 312 00:31:43,350 --> 00:31:46,170 The woman guard said, She's not eating. 313 00:31:57,990 --> 00:31:59,750 I told her she needs to eat. 314 00:32:00,120 --> 00:32:01,120 Even if it's horrible. 315 00:32:05,100 --> 00:32:06,200 You need to eat. 316 00:32:08,100 --> 00:32:09,620 You've got to stay strong. 317 00:32:13,060 --> 00:32:15,280 She didn't make eye contact with me. 318 00:32:16,480 --> 00:32:18,300 She just shut down. 319 00:32:27,400 --> 00:32:28,400 I was scared. 320 00:32:28,720 --> 00:32:30,620 She would die before she faced trial. 321 00:32:44,060 --> 00:32:48,880 She just didn't want to eat, so I had to do everything I could to get her out. 322 00:32:51,180 --> 00:32:57,060 And my only option was to plead guilty to the take charges. 323 00:32:59,280 --> 00:33:00,920 In the hope that she'd get off. 324 00:33:04,600 --> 00:33:05,600 So I did. 325 00:33:08,080 --> 00:33:09,700 I did a handwritten statement. 326 00:33:11,240 --> 00:33:13,980 I said that I was trafficking heroin. 327 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:18,380 Hashish. It were all me. 328 00:33:20,300 --> 00:33:22,320 I committed the offence solely. 329 00:33:28,700 --> 00:33:29,880 Handed it to the judge. 330 00:33:36,520 --> 00:33:37,720 A week later. 331 00:33:41,480 --> 00:33:43,660 I went to visit Shel. 332 00:33:46,620 --> 00:33:47,880 She wasn't there. 333 00:33:51,520 --> 00:33:52,820 She'd been released. 334 00:33:56,380 --> 00:33:57,380 Pleading guilty. 335 00:33:58,060 --> 00:34:01,620 At work, I was released. 336 00:34:03,940 --> 00:34:04,940 For her. 337 00:34:15,659 --> 00:34:21,000 A few days later, I 338 00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:27,199 was sentenced to 18 years in prison. 339 00:34:39,690 --> 00:34:40,790 I felt like a death penalty. 340 00:34:47,989 --> 00:34:50,190 I started getting bad dreams. 341 00:35:08,300 --> 00:35:10,160 waking up where you feel like you can't breathe. 342 00:35:18,260 --> 00:35:21,840 That affected my mental health massively. 343 00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:27,980 And I started going through major depression. 344 00:35:40,049 --> 00:35:41,570 Darkness. Loneliness. 345 00:35:44,190 --> 00:35:45,190 Hopelessness. 346 00:35:46,870 --> 00:35:53,850 There's nothing here that I can find a positivity in. 347 00:35:58,990 --> 00:36:01,030 Even my body was falling apart. 348 00:36:03,070 --> 00:36:04,790 And you just think... 349 00:36:05,900 --> 00:36:07,820 I can't do 18 years of this. 350 00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:19,560 So I broke into their medical wing of the jail. 351 00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:46,140 I decided to end it all. 352 00:37:15,210 --> 00:37:16,210 I thought, this is it. 353 00:37:17,070 --> 00:37:18,550 This is the day I die. 354 00:37:33,850 --> 00:37:37,590 I woke up and the room's spinning. 355 00:37:38,970 --> 00:37:42,950 My mouth was like cotton wool and... 356 00:37:43,360 --> 00:37:46,620 I was disappointed that it hadn't worked. 357 00:37:51,880 --> 00:37:53,320 Why did you do this? 358 00:37:59,880 --> 00:38:02,460 I can't survive 18 years here. 359 00:38:04,260 --> 00:38:06,860 I told him that I don't think I can do it. 360 00:38:08,420 --> 00:38:12,200 But he told me, you can't keep running away from your problems. 361 00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:15,260 You need to face them. 362 00:38:16,860 --> 00:38:18,960 And I asked him, how? 363 00:38:21,160 --> 00:38:25,200 And he said, I need to make up for the sins that had led me to prison. 364 00:38:31,820 --> 00:38:34,480 So I worked as his assistant, helping him. 365 00:38:38,620 --> 00:38:44,520 I used skills that I'd used in the army and I stitched people up. 366 00:38:46,700 --> 00:38:51,400 Helping people who'd had violence inflicted on them while in the prison. 367 00:38:54,500 --> 00:39:01,340 It wasn't long before prisoners said, go to the hospital to see Brett. 368 00:39:01,580 --> 00:39:02,860 He'll stitch you up. 369 00:39:05,320 --> 00:39:07,840 I got a lot of respect off the prisoners. 370 00:39:09,600 --> 00:39:12,700 And it definitely stopped me. 371 00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:20,060 feeling depressed, because to help somebody else 372 00:39:20,060 --> 00:39:25,760 is something that is good for you, but it's also good for them. 373 00:39:27,180 --> 00:39:31,200 And it just creates a harmony, you know. 374 00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:37,340 It gives me a sense of some worth, to be honest. 375 00:39:44,430 --> 00:39:47,690 I'd been in Indian prison three years and six months. 376 00:39:50,910 --> 00:39:54,950 And on the 18th of December, which is my birthday, 377 00:39:55,310 --> 00:40:01,950 I had a happy 378 00:40:01,950 --> 00:40:02,950 birthday. 379 00:40:04,270 --> 00:40:05,270 Off shell. 380 00:40:08,690 --> 00:40:10,450 She was with another partner. 381 00:40:12,590 --> 00:40:14,600 But... That was enough for me. 382 00:40:15,580 --> 00:40:17,000 I knew she was all right. 383 00:40:21,300 --> 00:40:25,240 And she didn't hold any grudge and she was getting on with her life. 384 00:40:28,960 --> 00:40:34,860 And then one morning, three guards came to my cell and 385 00:40:34,860 --> 00:40:38,440 said, get your things, you're going. 386 00:40:39,660 --> 00:40:43,880 And I thought, no, you're joking. This is not happening. 387 00:40:44,500 --> 00:40:46,160 You're being transferred to UK. 388 00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:16,540 As I was leaving prison, I told myself I would take this opportunity to help 389 00:41:16,540 --> 00:41:19,040 other people and do some good. 390 00:41:25,020 --> 00:41:31,860 Then on February 24th, 2022, Russia invaded 391 00:41:31,860 --> 00:41:32,860 Ukraine. 392 00:41:44,590 --> 00:41:50,870 It reduced me to tears watching it Just 393 00:41:50,870 --> 00:41:57,190 innocent people 394 00:41:57,190 --> 00:42:04,170 losing their lives on a daily basis Women and 395 00:42:04,170 --> 00:42:10,870 children they're not soldiers So 396 00:42:10,870 --> 00:42:12,010 I thought 397 00:42:13,640 --> 00:42:15,040 What way can I help? 398 00:42:20,040 --> 00:42:21,880 So I purchased a minibus. 399 00:42:24,780 --> 00:42:31,220 And I started to go out to the front line to try and save 400 00:42:31,220 --> 00:42:33,220 as many civilians as I can. 401 00:42:37,740 --> 00:42:40,980 I have rescued in excess of 3 ,000 people. 402 00:42:43,600 --> 00:42:49,360 I've been shot at and people ask, why are you doing this? It's not your war. 403 00:42:50,720 --> 00:42:53,320 And the only answer I can give is because I can. 404 00:42:56,000 --> 00:43:02,640 The skills that I used in the army and how to keep calm under pressure, I used 405 00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:04,180 that to smuggle drugs. 406 00:43:05,660 --> 00:43:11,860 Now this is my chance to use them skills for good reasons. 407 00:43:14,640 --> 00:43:15,640 to save lives. 408 00:43:18,740 --> 00:43:24,820 I've made my mistakes, I've done my rights, I've done my wrongs, but to go 409 00:43:24,820 --> 00:43:27,720 a conflict zone to help people 410 00:43:27,720 --> 00:43:32,900 makes me feel 411 00:43:32,900 --> 00:43:36,080 proud of myself.